So I have this cousin…
his name is brian and i am so totally and very very very frustrated and unbelievably full of absolute hatred toward him. he has made it very hard for me to be able to be in the same room as him, enjoy holidays where i know he’s gonna be there, and for it to even be possible for me to talk to my sister without your name coming up. what am i supposed to do? i can’t stand being around him but at the same time i can’t stand to be apart from him. i want him to enjoy being around me like he did two years ago. i want him to be able to talk to me like he does to erin. i want him to be able to be around me and actually talk to me and not feel forced to do so. that he actually sincerely wants to know how my day was, what i did that day, how my life is going. that when he says i love you he actually means it. not in the creepy kind of way but the way where someone that actually truly truly and sincerely cares for you. i want to know that when you say that you actually mean it. that you actually aren’t saying it cuz you feel you have to or that you feel it’s the right thing to do. cuz really it’s even worse hearing it from someone that you know really doesn’t mean it. they are just saying it to get you off their back or to make themselves feel good. they’re just saying what they think they are required to say or what they think will make you happy. I hate it!!! if you say things you don’t mean too many times, you’ll end up like the boy who cried wolf. when you actually do mean what you say no one is gonna believe you cuz you’ve never been truthful about how you feel in the past. and why should they? really you really think that someone should just automatically know when you’re telling the truth? well it doesn’t work that way sorry to burst your bubble but no it doesn’t work that way. afadfadfjsdfadldadjjiojiojiowefjkadffjidfjijiowerpiofvjklsgasgjisvjasg iwefafjaefjiaefasfpopjopo ntotrdnmcskldeoeoekfgjhfiwekfildiogerm,kjio
that’s right that’s how i feel.
